The truth will set me free

March 10, 2005
At the moment I’m on a plane to Toronto for meetings tomorrow morning. Paul finally finished moving out yesterday. He text messaged me at work around 4 o’clock that he’d be gone by 6 which had me in panic mode for the last two hours of the day as I kept thinking, “what in the hell is he doing in my apartment? As far as I know he’s moved out everything that he wants and was only dropping off the car.” It both rankled and creeped me out. I discovered upon arriving home that he’d cleaned which was nice and unexpected, especially after the bizarre emails of hate over the last few days. I woke up this morning feeling pretty great all things considered and had hope for the first time in a long time. I feel like I can get back on my path again now and stop with this stupid and pointless depression. I’m trying to give up the cig’s again and a short trip away is always a great start for that. This of course means no alcohol as I loose all will power but that’s also a very good thing too. I realized that I’ve got to embrace EVERYTHING about myself if I’m going to live a full and successful life and that includes loving my weaknesses. That seems like a bit of a contradiction but it’s one that makes sense. I’m even going to post this journal that I started on my blog which is a potentially very public way for me to face myself and in so doing, embrace myself. I do feel very full of hope again and God willing I’ll be able to accomplish everything that I need/want to do. ‘The truth shall set you free.’